What My Dreams Are

Waking in the dark again,
Cold and breathing heavily;
I screw my eyes shut
As the face of insanity looks into them.

Screaming and alone again,
Frozen and breathless;
I want to be blind
As death tears my eyelids open.

I take what they say to heart again,
Letting the acid and poison eat me;
I want to be visible
As everyone around me ignores me.

I'm learning to trust again,
Letting myself allow it to happen;
I never want to go back there
As everyone around me carries me.